I’m starting again. I don't need another man in my life, not when I know it can lead to pain, excruciating, soul crushing pain. No, I need to be me, without a man in my life.Who am I kidding, why would a man like him remember a fleeting afternoon…

When you have to leave behind a life you just can’t take any more, it's best to expect the unexpected, despite my list that’s the one thing I hadn’t prepared for, the past to become my present. I would have never guessed that I would see him again after all this time, the one man that made me feel so alive six years ago. My dreams of him now are nothing compared to the real man who stands before me.

But I’m not the same person I was then, not even I know who I am anymore.